Friday, November 20, 2015

7 years since surgery

7 years since surgery. thank you, Dr. Michelle Chu. seven years without recurrence or any health issues at all. seven years of loving my children and friends. four years of being back in davis - swimming and riding my bike and taking long walks, loving the farmers' market, the library, the olive tree path, the sheep farm, Mr. Jennifer, my beautiful home. three years of loving everything about the farm and never wanting to leave it. i don't take any day or any moment for granted. i am grateful that i had cancer but especially grateful that it hasn't come back in these seven years.

happy thanksgiving, every day


Monday, October 5, 2015

FINALLY!!!!!!!! California Governor Brown Signs End-of-Life Bill!!!

Governor Jerry Brown Signs End-of-Life Bill

- by Nannette Asimov, San Francisco Chronicle

-- For the first time in California history, terminally ill people who wish to end their lives can be prescribed a lethal dose of drugs under certain restrictive conditions. Gov. Jerry Brown signed the “End of Life Option Act” into law on Monday, ending speculation over whether the former Jesuit seminarian would veto the bill opposed by the Catholic Church and some advocates for the sick and disabled.

The bill is not an ordinary bill “because it deals with life and death,” Brown wrote in his signing message. “The crux of the matter is whether the state of California should continue to make it a crime for a dying person to end his life, no matter how great his pain or suffering.”

In making California only the fourth state with such a law when it takes effect in January, Brown wrote that he considered the issue from “theological and religious perspectives that any deliberate shortening of one’s life is sinful.” He said he read letters of opposition from doctors and others, and said he did not know what he would do if he were dying and in pain.

“I am certain, however, that it would be a comfort to be able to consider the options afforded by this bill,” he wrote. “And I wouldn’t deny that right to others.”

Assembly bill X2-15 sunsets in 10 years and narrowly defines the circumstances under which mentally competent, terminally ill patients can receive the lethal dose of medication.
Before the drugs can be prescribed, two California doctors must agree that such a person has no more than six months to live.

It is then the patient’s choice whether to take the drugs. Those who want to must affirm their intention 48 hours in advance and must take the drugs on their own, without help.

California has seen five previous efforts to pass an aid-in-dying law since 1992, when state voters rejected a ballot initiative by a 54 to 46 margin. Similar laws failed to make it out of the state Legislature four times between 1995 and 2008.

State Sen. Lois Wolk, D-Davis tried again this year after the conversation in California about medical prescriptions for terminally ill people grew more personal a year earlier.

Brittany Maynard of Alamo, a 29-year-old elementary school teacher, was diagnosed terminal brain cancer in spring 2014. Aware that her rapidly growing tumor foretold a painful death, Maynard and her husband of two years, Dan Diaz, left California and moved to Orgeon to take advantage of that state’s “Death with Dignity” law and receive the barbiturate Seconal that would let Mayard die painlessly. She described her decisions on video, and the recording — now one of several she made — went viral.

“I want this law to change for Californians and all Americans,” she told the Chronicle last October, weeks before she ended her life on Nov. 1. “To be a part of getting the ball rolling is something I feel good about. I want to make sure no one else has to do what I did and pack up their family and move to another state to not die horribly.”

In addition to California and Oregon, Washington and Vermont offer the option to the terminally ill.

Nanette Asimov is a San Francisco Chronicle staff writer. E-mail:

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Wednesday, May 20, 2015

The Journey - David Whyte


Above the mountains
the geese turn into
the light again

Painting their
black silhouettes
on an open sky.

Sometimes everything
has to be
inscribed across
the heavens

so you can find
the one line
already written
inside you.

Sometimes it takes
a great sky
to find that

first, bright
and indescribable
wedge of freedom
in your own heart.

Sometimes with
the bones of the black
sticks left when the fire
has gone out

someone has written
something new
in the ashes of your life.

You are not leaving.
Even as the light fades quickly now,
you are arriving.

- David Whyte

Sunday, May 3, 2015

Love After Love - Derek Walcott

Love After Love

The time will come
when, with elation,
you will greet yourself arriving
at your own door, in your own mirror,
and each will smile at the other’s welcome,
and say, sit here. Eat.

You will love again the stranger who was your self.
Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart
to itself, to the stranger who has loved you
all your life, whom you ignored
for another, who knows you by heart.

Take down the love letters from the bookshelf,
the photographs, the desperate notes,
peel your own image from the mirror.
Sit. Feast on your life.

Derek Walcott

Thursday, January 8, 2015

Combination of carboplatin and chemotherapy improves outcomes for triple-negative breast cancer patients

Combination of carboplatin and chemotherapy improves outcomes for triple-negative breast cancer patients

December 11, 2014
Eric Winer, MD

In a clinical trial involving women with triple-negative breast cancer, patients who received the drugs carboplatin and/or bevacizumab in combination with standard chemotherapy prior to surgery were more likely to have their tumors disappear entirely from the breast, according to data presented by investigators during the 2014 San Antonio Breast Cancer Symposium.

Although bevacizumab doesn't reduce long-term rates of cancer recurrence, the results raise hopes that carboplatin can be an important part of the fight against triple-negative cancer, say the leaders of the study, which was organized by the Alliance for Clinical Trials in Oncology with extensive involvement of physician/scientists at Dana-Farber Cancer Institute.

The investigators analyzed data from 360 patients with triple-negative breast cancer, the vast majority of whom had a form of the disease known as basal-like tumors. Triple-negative cancer, named for its cells' lack of three key receptors, accounts for about 15-20 percent of all breast cancers and tends to be aggressive, but can often be treated successfully if caught early. Basal-like tumors are made up of cells that resemble the basal cells lining the milk ducts.

In the trial, patients with triple-negative breast cancer were treated with "neoadjuvant" chemotherapy — which helps shrink tumors so they can be surgically removed — either alone or in combination with bevacizumab or carboplatin or both. (Bevacizumab prevents tumors from developing networks of blood vessels; carboplatin is a platinum-based chemotherapy agent.)

The researchers found that 61 percent of patients with basal-like tumors who received a combination of carboplatin and chemotherapy experienced a pathologic complete response — no microscopic evidence of cancer in the breast following surgery to remove tumor tissue — compared to 47 percent of those who received chemotherapy alone. Roughly the same improvement was seen in patients with other types of triple-negative breast cancer.

"In general, patients with triple-negative breast cancer who have a pathological complete response (pCR) with neoadjuvant chemotherapy are much less likely to experience a recurrence," says the study's senior author, Eric Winer, MD, director of Breast Oncology at the Susan F. Smith Center for Women's Cancers at Dana-Farber. "While we are optimistic about the role of carboplatin in triple negative breast cancer, we still do not know if it will lead to a high cure rate. Ongoing studies are addressing this issue and attempting to determine how and in whom to use carboplatin."

Funding for the study was provided by the National Cancer Institute, Roche-Genentech, and the Breast Cancer Research Foundation.

The lead author of the study is William Sikov, MD, of Brown University. Co-authors are William Barry, PhD, Sara Tolaney, MD, and Mehra Golshan, MD, of Dana-Farber; Katherine Hoadley, PhD, and Charles Perou, PhD, of University of North Carolina Lineberger Comprehensive Cancer Center; Brandelyn Pitcher, MS, of Alliance Statistical Center, Durham, N.C.; Baljit Singh, MD, of New York University Medical Center; Charles Kuzma, MD, of Southeast Cancer Control Consortium; Timothy Pluard, MD, of Washington University-St Louis Medical Center; George Somlo, MD, of City of Hope Comprehensive Cancer Center; Elisa Port, MD, of Mount Sinai Medical Center, New York, N.Y.; Donald Berry, PhD, and Lisa Carey, MD, of MD Anderson Cancer Center; Olwen Hahn, MD, of University of Chicago Medical Center; and Clifford Hudis, MD, of Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center.

Friday, January 2, 2015

Hello, 2015! I love you!

From Bryce Andrews' book, "Badluck Way" -

"We let the fire die when the storm broke, and rode together toward the higher pastures and the barn. Every tree was dripping and the creeks had swollen. It occurred to me that I had achieved a rare thing: I was living at the center of my heart's geography. And I knew it."

That's how I feel about my life. I am living at the center of my heart's geography: my love for my children, for my life in Davis, for my friends at the farm, for the farm itself, for all my friends and family, for my healthy body.

So, hello, 2015. I love you! Happy New Year!

These photos reflect what I've loved about 2014.

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Ignore all that stupid breast cancer pink B.S. in October - do this instead

Finally! An organization that exposes the bullshit of the pink ribbon and all things pink in the breast cancer race for making money off of us! Thank you, Kevin, for leading me to this group, Breast Cancer Action:

Think Before You Pink® – Stop the Distraction

By Karuna Jaggar, Executive Director

September 30, 2014

It’s Breast Cancer Industry Month and the pink floodgates have opened. And again we ask: what have all these pink ribbon products and promotions done for women living with and at risk of breast cancer?

Together, over the years, we’ve changed the landscape of pink ribbon marketing. Pinkwashing is now a household word. People understand that you always have to “follow the money” in pink ribbon marketing. We’ve exposed the hypocrisy in pink ribbon fundraising and achieved some momentous wins against corporations.

This October, we’re taking it further and targeting some of the most outrageous pink ribbon promotions that exemplify everything that’s wrong with pink ribbon culture. We’re calling out the empty awareness, the misinformation, the profiteering,the pinkwashing, the degrading of women, the “tyranny of cheerfulness” that hides the harsh realities of this disease.

We’re sick of marketing giants raking in billions of pink ribbon dollars while women continue to be diagnosed with and die from this disease.

Pink ribbon culture distracts from meaningful progress on breast cancer in six fundamental ways:

Pink ribbon products spread empty awareness. “Awareness” has failed to address and end the breast cancer epidemic. Who isn’t aware of breast cancer these days? Pink ribbon trinkets on store shelves that promote “awareness” ultimately change nothing. We have more than enough awareness, but not nearly enough action that will make a significant difference to whether women get breast cancer or survive it. By making the public think “awareness” is the end goal, pink ribbon culture defuses anger about breast cancer and its devastating impact, and distracts us from the meaningful actions that will achieve health justice for us all. Oriental Trading, for example, is spreading empty awareness via its endless supply of plastic pink ribbon trinkets – the company pockets all the money from these sales!

Instead of more meaningless gestures that defuse righteous anger and distract us from the real issues, we need bold action to address and end the epidemic.

Pink ribbon promotions spread misinformation. Whether by over-inflating women’s risk of developing breast cancer, spreading the myth that “early detection is your best protection,” focusing on a five-year cure rate for a disease that remains a risk throughout a woman’s life, or other ways of cheerfully fudging the statistics, many pink ribbon promotions fail to tell the whole truth. These inaccuracies allow pink ribbon marketers to manipulate consumers’ emotions through fear-mongering and false promises—in order to sell more products. The NFL, for example, is spreading misinformation about breast cancer by repeating disproven and misleading advice about mammography screening in their “Crucial Catch” campaign.

Breast cancer campaigns must offer evidence-based information that does not fuel fear or offer empty promises in the attempt to sell pink products.

Corporations exploit concern about breast cancer for profit. Each October, marketers take advantage of people’s sincere concern about breast cancer to make money and generate good publicity. Companies sell products, make profits, and seek customer goodwill by claiming to care about breast cancer. Yet, most of these promotions ultimately benefit corporations far more than they help women living with and at risk of breast cancer. By tapping into our generosity and genuine desire to help, these companies avoid transparency about where the pink ribbon money goes and too often leave consumers unable to accurately evaluate the promises made in product advertising. Kohls’ recent “Pink Elephant in the Room” promotion, for example, was outrageous profiteering; it exploited concern for women affected by breast cancer to make millions for the company.
Companies and charities must honor people’s good intentions with full transparency and accountability in their breast cancer fundraising and marketing.

Some pink ribbon products are linked to causing breast cancer. Years ago, Breast Cancer Action came up with a term for this, pinkwashing: the outrageous corporate practice of selling products linked to an increased risk of breast cancer while claiming to care about (and profiting from) breast cancer. It is outrageous and deeply hypocritical for companies to make money and gain customer goodwill from products that increase the risk of the very disease they claim to care about! Alhambra Water, for example, is pinkwashing by selling plastic polycarbonate water bottles which contain BPA, a hormone-disrupting chemical linked to breast cancer.
Companies that claim to care about breast cancer should make sure their own products and services don’t increase women’s risk of breast cancer.

Pink ribbon promotions often degrade women by objectifying and sexualizing women’s breasts and bodies. From “save the boobies” to “save the ta-tas” to “save second base,” campaigns like these demean and insult women—and distract from the true focus of saving women’s lives. They highlight narrow standards of beauty (thin, white, able-bodied, and young), depict women as coy sex-objects and too often promote the fantasy of “perfect” breasts. These sexy/cute campaigns hide the lived experiences of women in all their diversity and complexity. NASCAR, for example, is selling breast cancer awareness t-shirts that say “Check Your Headlights” which degrade women by objectifying and sexualizing women’s breasts and bodies.

We must honor women’s rich complexity and full diversity, rather than obsess over narrowly defined body parts as the focus of breast cancer campaigns.

Pink ribbon culture obscures the harsh reality of breast cancer by creating a single story of triumphant survivorship based on positive thinking, beauty tips, and sanitized, carefully chosen images of women living with the disease– and sometimes women who do not even have breast cancer. Breast cancer is not pretty and pink, and many women who “fight hard,” “fight like a girl,” and try to “beat breast cancer” develop metastatic cancer and still die from the disease. Breast cancer is only profitable when it’s palatable, and the pink ribbon covers up the devastating, harsh reality that so many women and their loved ones are dealing with. Hooters’ breast cancer campaigns, for example, obscure the harsh reality of breast cancer by promoting a story of triumphant survivorship based on positive thinking, beauty tips, and sanitized, carefully chosen images of women.
We must value all women living with and at risk of breast cancer and recognize the hard realities of breast cancer, including and especially metastatic disease.

If these marketing giants really care about addressing breast cancer, they’ll Stop the Distraction! They’ll take bold action, provide evidence-based information, be accountable and transparent in their fundraising, stop degrading women, value women’s diversity, and stop hiding the harsh realities of this disease.

Take a stand against the industry that is taking advantage of our goodwill, profiteering off this disease, and distracting the movement from meaningful progress on breast cancer.

Whether you are joining us for the first time or are a long-time Breast Cancer Action activist, thank you for taking action with us and demanding real progress on breast cancer.

P.S. After you let these pink offenders know what you think about breast cancer campaigns, join us on Facebook and Twitter and share our “Stop the Distraction” graphics with your friends and family and let the world know why many pink ribbon promotions do more harm than good.

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Wednesday, September 24, 2014

60 years young

it would be ridiculous to whine about being "old" at 60, considering what i went through to get here! but it does feel weird, oh so weird, to say i am 60. but 60 feels wonderful and i've never been more grateful - both of my kids are very happy and healthy and i see them often, i love the farm and my farm friends, i ride my bike instead of drive my car 99% of the time, and i love everything about davis and my life here. la vie est belle and i look forward to growing older!